After Delivery

On the day, Heloisa was born, we kindly asked for no
visitors at the hospital.
Since my parents weren't coming, we decided to ask for
no visitors at all at the hospital on Feb 11th.
My parents weren't coming because my doctor thought it
was my Mom's best interest not to stay at a hospital,
since she is in remission and doing really well.
Heloisa had jaundice. Her billirubin levels were really high,
before she was 24 hours old.
So she had to take light baths.
On Sunday and Monday, we had plenty of visitors,
but most of them only saw her on the nursery window.
On Tuesday, we were both released and we went home.
My Mom arrived that afternoon. She was a God's send.
I don't know how I would have survived without her help.
She stayed over a week. I learned so much with her.
She helped overcome my fears of caring for Heloisa.
Giving Heloisa a bath was (is) by far the most
freighthening task for me.
It seemed she was a toy with a new set of batteries.
She was restless, she cleaned, she cooked,
she did our laundry, she worked on my backyard
and she bossed around my housekeeper.
Since, Heloisa was born a week before Mardi Gras,
my Dad came over the long weekend
to meet her.
It was really nice to have them at my house sharing
such a especial moment with us.
But what is good come to an end.
On Monday, they flew back home.
And it was only Paulo, Heloisa and I at home.
I was really scared and overwhelmed.
I had so many doubts.
I was basically convinced I wouldn't be capable
to take care of Heloisa
Heloisa was born on the small side,
due to my preeclampsia.
She was born with 2,560kg or 5lb, 4oz (given or taken).
But, once again, I had to face my fears.
I will never forget the stress to give her a bath
without my Mom on my side.

After a month and a half, I can tell you
 I am not feeling as overwhelmed as I was.
But to give her a bath,
it still is the most freightening task ; )