Ever since I got pregnant, I have an overwhelming feeling with me.
I cannot explain why. I just feel it.
I guess this major changing, that is coming on my way, is keeping me overwhelmed.
I was always a career person, I never thought of myself as a wife or a Mom for that matter. It took me some time to adjust to career person to career person/wife.
Even though I had my time as a SAHW when we lived overseas, I always had volunteer jobs to keep me close to the corporate world.
How someone prepare to add the biggest role to your life, when you cannot even picture how your life will be when the baby is born. The thought that keeps crossing my mind: How will I handle the kind of crazy life we have and have a baby? Will we (me) be able to do it?
We live in a city with the 6th worst traffic in the world, according to this research. It takes me at one hour to drive 10 miles. I work in a consulting company and if you are familiar with consulting companies, you know: projects are always crazy with even crazier due dates. And most of my company's clients are outside of São Paulo, which always involves traveling. Hubby works for an automaker, and his travel schedule is just plain crazy. Hence, he is in France for 06 months this year.
Will we be able to set a good example to Heloísa? Will we be able to raise her to respect and believe in God? What kind of changes in our lives we will need to do??? Will we be able to raise her to be polite and respect others? Will we be able to sleep train her and not be seduced by the comfort of rocking her? How I will handle Hubby's absence this year and the years to come? How we will teach her right from wrong???
I truly believe no one can answer those questions for me and those questions will only be answered after Heloisa is born.
AND it will take a lot of time for us to figure it out!!!
Don't get me wrong, I feel EXTREMELY blessed to be pregnant with Heloísa and the fact I am having an uneventful pregnancy. But I am still worried.
I guess, if I wasn’t worried, it wouldn’t be me ; )