Corpus Christi

The festival of Corpus Christi celebrates the Eucharist as the body of Christ. The name 'Corpus Christi' is Latin for 'the body of Christ'.

This jubilant festival is celebrated by Roman Catholics and other Christians to proclaim the truth of the transubstantiation of bread and wine into the actual body of Christ during Mass.

In some countries in the world, Catholic churches still celebrate the festival, not only with a Mass, but also with a procession that carries the consecrated wafer through the streets as a public statement that the sacrifice of Christ was for the salvation of the whole world.

Corpus Christi falls between late May and the middle of June, on the first Thursday after Trinity Sunday (60 days after Easter). In some countries the festival is celebrated on the Sunday after Trinity Sunday.

In Brazil, we have a national holiday, since Brazil is a Catholic country.

But, there is a beautiful tradition on Corpus Christi. After the mass, the priest and the whole congregation will go on a procession and they will walk over miles and miles of rugs made by the community.

These rugs are made of processed tires, egg shells, little stones, sand, and lots of shredded wood.

These images are all from Google Images.

Miscellany Monday

1. Thank you for all the love and comments on my last post.
2. Some days, I'm 100% over and some days I just wish I could hide under a rock.
3. My Mom is half way through her last round of chemo.
4. She is holding strong.
5. I watched three movies on the last few days: Yogi Bear, Wall Street - The money never sleeps and Hereafter.
6. I'm writing down everything I eat.
7. We will have a three days week due to Corpus Christi holiday.
8. Hubby is getting ready for business trip.
9. It is a short one, but it still is a business trip.
10. I'm still trying to avoid business trips, but I don't know how long I will be able to avoid : (

I hope you have a wonderful week.

One year old

My baby girl would be one year old tomorrow.

Instead of celebrating her birthday, I’m still mourning her loss.

When I had my first miscarriage last year, as soon as I was out of the hospital, I went back to work. I focus on my career and my job. I never allowed myself to grieve. I tried to “Cover the sun with a strainer” (This is a popular saying in Brazil).

I never allowed myself to grieve the same way I never allowed myself to be pregnant. What I mean is, I never let myself to love, to prepare and to feel that little baby growing inside of me. I never bought a single gift to her. Everything I looked, I thought was not good enough for her (Was this a sign?). I rushed in getting pregnant again and the 2^nd miscarriage happened.

I went out in the quest of the “holy grail”. My personal HOLY GRAIL: an answer for all these horrible things that happened to me and my babies. I changed doctors last November and he studied carefully my case and nothing was found.

As all of the Holy Grail quests, nothing was found. I ended up with more questions than answers.

After I realized how depressed I was, I started running, therapy and etc.

I went back to see him early February and he finally released us to try to get pregnant again. He said he had confidence I would get pregnant in three to four months, but he also warned me to not get my hopes up, due to my “tubes” situation.

If I didn’t get pregnant on his time frame, he asked me to go back.

When I went back, two week ago, to tell him I wasn’t pregnant, he started the IVF speech.

I always had a feeling this would be the final answer. We talked, and talked and talked…. In the end, he suggested that Hubby and I would take the 1^st step on the Infertility Treatment Ladder (Clomid + some sort of shot at the 11^th day cycle) for 04 months and if nothing happens…. IVF is our way out.

I still don’t feel any of these situations are right. I’m still praying and begging God to listen to me.

Miscellany Monday

1. I'm becoming a really bad blogger.
2. I try to post, but I end up with nothing.
3. I'm doing the second session of Good Morning Girls.
4. I met a wonderful group of Ladies.
5. And they are the best.
6. I went to see my OB last week.
7. I have three words for you: IVF (I'll write more about it, after I processed everything my doctor told me).