junho 29, 2010
Thanks for the well wishes for my Mom.
She is healing well. She has a drain(???) on her back. A little tube to drain fluids that might accumulate around the surgery and it will be taken off on Friday along with her stitches.
And by then the biopsy results will be back. So the doctor will be able to prescribe her treatment.
He told my family that he thinks her chances of staying out of chemo or radiation are about 98%. So, he won't take chances until he sees the biopsy results.
As for now, we just wait and pray!!!
It seems that learning how to be patient and wait is the goal that God set to me this year. What do you think??
I hope you are having a great week.
junho 28, 2010
Today is the first time I am joining the Miscellany Monday party at Carissa's Blog.
1. I always want to join the blog parties, but most of the times when I remember it is past its due date.
2. I had McDonald's for lunch today. Since Brazil is playing and winning, I thought McDonald's would be a festive choice of meal for me. Now, I have to work up on my courage to go to the gym.
3. Since I went away to visit my parents last week, I didn't finish my laundry on the weekend, the way my OCD side likes. So, I am finishing the laundry while I write this post.
4. I still have a TON of work to get done, since I was out of the office two days last week, but honestly I don't feel like it.
5. Brazil just won the match against Chile, so we will play again o Friday. So we will have three hours off from work on Friday to watch the game. (I am happy I just started a new book, so I will probably hide somewhere to read it ; ))
6.I just wrote my first post of Miscellany Monday ; )
junho 25, 2010
My Mom had another surgery on Wednesday, due to her breast cancer problem. They had to take off her lynphonodes (spell check, please). The surgery was smaller than the doctor expected, so she was released from the hospital yesterday. By the time, my flight sarrived at the airport, she was already on her way home ; )
She is healing well, but she is having a hard time adjusting to the idea that my siter and I are in CHARGE of the house work until tomorrow ; ) It is plain funny to send her back to bed and to get more rest. HA!!! My siter and I are having a fun time with that ; )
Other tha that, we are here doing laundry, cooking and picking up the house!!!
I hope you have a wonderful weekend.
junho 20, 2010
Now that my ex due date is behind us, it seems that a huge weight was taken off my back. It is a weird feeling, but that is how I am feeling.
We didn't do anything especial this weekend, but we really did a lot of things around the house.
We got our new chairs for the kitchen and most and more important we unpacked ALL of our books. It is a huge accomplishment for me. We still have a few more boxes, but we are finally on our way to clean up the future baby nursery (God willing).
PS1.: Brazil is playing and as for now it is Brazil 3 X 0 Ivory Coast.
PS2: Gabriela, yesterday we went to a Burguer Restaurant and we couldn't drink soda out of a can,we used glasses and we ate french fries with fork ; )
junho 17, 2010
Today was supposed to be my due date. I’ve been dreading this week. I knew it would be hard.
Some days I almost don’t remember what happened, but some days I just want to stay in bed and covered with blankets. I still don’t accept that I have no answer for what happened. I tried not to ask whys on my head.
As I previously wrote, I am physically released to try again, but I am not sure I can handle a new pregnancy emotionally. Since I am working really hard on set my mind “straight” again, I decided to do a recap post with my story. So in years to come, I can remember the details of what happened during my first pregnancy.
June 25th, 2009 – Hubby and I had a very serious conversation about having or not a child. He asked me to think really hard about it, while I was working in Paris.
July 19th, 2009 – Back from a business trip from Paris and I told Hubby I made up my mind and I wanted to have a baby.
August 2009 – We started TTC.
October 12th, 2009 – I took FIVE home tests and they were all positive;
October 14th, 2009 – I took a blood test and it was POSITIVE;
November 4th, 2009 – First US and I was officially pregnant;
December 11th, 2009 – First trimester morphological US. The baby was great, but it moved so much, they couldn’t say if it was a boy or a girl.
December 31st, 2009 – At 16 weeks, my water broke and I was rushed to the hospital and I was put on bed rest until further notice;
January 4th, 2010 – The doctors couldn’t do anything else, since I have no fluid left and all their efforts to build up fluids were not working. The doctors declared the end of the pregnancy.
I am against abortion and so is the Brazilian law (one of the few laws that really work down here – it is sad but true). So, I had to stay in the hospital waiting until the baby’s heart stop beating, due to lack of fluids.
January 13th, 2010 – The baby’s heart stops beating.
January 14th, 2010 – I did a D&C.
January 15th, 2010 – I was finally released from the hospital.
Since January, I’ve been trying to heal and to make peace with all that happened. I’ve been “clinging “into my faith. I feel that I am closer to God. Hubby and I are in the same page, in almost everything in our lives as a married couple. And for the first time, I can really say that I REALLY WANT TO HAVE A CHILD.
Am I ready to start again? NO.
But will I ever be ready? NO
But I have my heart open for what has in store for me and my family!!!
On a side note: I woke up this morning feeling well, got ready and went to work. By the time I got to the office, I had a massive migraine. One of those migraines that it is hard to leave your eyes opened. I stayed at the office until 11:00 am, and I came back home. I have NO CLUE how I drove home, since my head hurt so badly. After a few hours of sleeping and a restful afternoon I am feeling better.
I am PRETTY sure it was a physical reaction of my emotional melt down.
junho 15, 2010
So, this weekend (since Hubby is doing much better) we went on a chair hunt. I am so excited we found something we both liked and it will fit perfectly on our kitchen. We ordered two and they will be available next weekend. As soon as we assemble them, I will post pictures for you ; )Today, Brazil is playing on the World Cup. We will have a 3/4 day at work (from 8:00 am to 2:30 pm). Since, I don't like to watch the game, I will be coming home and relax, since I have to go to Rio de Janeiro tomorrow, for a day full of meetings. Now, I am off to work.
junho 13, 2010
Hubby and I are not Valentine people. I mean, we had a long distance relationship (he in US, me in Brazil). Then, we got married and moved to US (Valentine's Day in Feb). Back to Brazil after 2 years, Valentine's day in June.... But at this point, the festivity was lost ; )
This year, however, we decided to go out for dinner on Valentine's Day. We chose a Forneria (Italian restaurant specialized in baked dishes: pizzas, calzones, etc) close to our house. It is really a fancy, expensive and eco-friendly place. I could write a whole post about the eco features in there.
Anyway, we chose our beverages, appetizers and main dish. They brought the beverages correctly and then it started the roller coaster ride.
The appetizers were not right, we chose ciabbata with buffalo mozzarella and basil, they brought calabreza bread. We ordered two type of pizza and one of the flavors were COMPLETELY WRONG.
We called the Maitre (the head of waiters) and explained all the happened. They correct our pizza order. The pizza was delicious and really flavorful.
We decided we wouldn't stress, since we had each other company, the wine was good and the food was REALLY good, even with the wrong flavors.
We thought about having a dessert, but we gave up after all the mess.
By the time our bill arrived, we had the BEST surprise EVER. Since they only got our drinks right, they were only charging us with the DRINKS.
Yes, you read it right, we only paid for the drinks and parking lot.
Our bill was only R$50,00, which is approximately US$ 26,31.
If our bill was full, it would have cost us WAYYYY more than that.
In the end, we were pretty happy with all the mess they made ; )
junho 09, 2010
I love him to pieces, but sometimes (always) overdue himself with his job demands. Yes, he has a really demanding job on the automotive industry.
Since we got married, we’ve been through a lot together: pneumonia, back surgery, thyroid surgery, and countless sciatic crises.
When he is on his physical limit (stress wise), his body starts to send him messages, a little pain here, a little flu there. And since he is a strong guy, he doesn’t pay attention. Until his body decides to send him a BIG message.
That is where we are now. He has a pretty bad sinus infection for the past three weeks and since Monday he has an acute sciatic pain.
On Sunday night, he decided it was not wise of him to travel on Monday morning. I was really relieved because I could sense he wasn’t feeling well.
When we woke up on Monday, he said that his leg was feeling a little sore and he would lie on the couch to rest, since he wasn’t going to travel.
I kept getting ready and out of the door to go to work. We talked a few times during the day, but he never mentioned how bad he was feeling.
I (wisely) decided to skip the gym and go home. I got home and he was STILL on the couch and he wasn’t able to stand on his feet due to acute pain.
Long story short, he only got up a few times to go to the restroom and to grab some crackers and some fruit, but he lied there the whole day.
I made him dinner, bought some pain killers and I prayed he would feel better. The pain was so intense; he couldn’t sit on the car for me to take him to the doctor.
Today he is feeling better, he is still working from home and the pain is still there.
I made him promise this time, as soon as this crisis is over, he will go back to his exercise program and he will go to a doctor to get his back checked.
I am hanging in here and praying that he will finally admit that his body is a machine that needs constant maintenance to survive.
Sorry for the long post, but I really need to take this out of my chest ; )
junho 07, 2010
One thing that is really catching up with me is the fact that our house does not resemble a home, better yet, we have a beautiful house, but it is far away of being our home. Even though we especial order all the furniture accordingly to our taste, it still does not feel like home.
We still have boxes to be opened; we have a TV which is wrapped on the movers’ paper that hasn’t been turned on in the past two and a half years, etc. I can go on and on and on with things that have to be done.
There isn’t one single picture on the walls, the photo frames have pictures from when we lived in US (we’ve been back for seven years now).
Anyway, I’ve really been trying to get things done little by little, but it is hard when you have a schedule as crazy as mine. Here is a sample of how my life goes:
On Monday, the alarm goes off at 4:45am. I wake up and get breakfast ready while Hubby showers and get ready for his weekly trip. At 5:00 am, we get breakfast together and by 5:20, he is already off the door. I, then, stop, pray, shower and hit the road by 6:45am.
I work normally until 6:00 pm, and I hit the gym by 7:30 pm until 9:00pm. I get home, take a shower, eat something, read something and go to bed by 11:00pm
On Tuesday, the alarm goes off at 5:30am. I cook breakfast, pray, shower and hit the road by 6:45am. I work normally until 6:00 pm, and I hit the gym by 7:30 pm until 9:00pm. I get home, take a shower, eat something, read something and go to bed by 11:00pm
On Wednesday, it is my day without a car day. This means, my car cannot drive downtown l 7:00 and 10:00 am, and 5:00 and 8:00pm. The alarm goes off at 4:45am, pray, shower and hit the road by 6:15am. I work normally until 8:00 pm, get home by 8:45pm, take a shower, eat something, read something and go to bed by 11:00pm.
On Thursdays and Fridays, the schedule goes mainly like Tuesday. But on Friday, it is the day hubby comes home. And he will only come home around 10:00pm (due to traffic issues).
On Saturday s and Sundays, I have to take care of the house (which is clean and my laundry is ironed due to my excellent house keeper), go grocery shopping and get the laundry done.
This post is mainly for me and it is a realization that major changes are needed. I am still trying to figure out what to do and how to do. But I am trying.
Thanks for baring with me on this confusing times ; )
junho 05, 2010
The main call was for the laundry technician. My laundry machine has been soooo loud. Think something loud and multiply by 10000. That was its sound.
After 7 years of NO MAINTENANCE and 10 months on storage, the engine was almost dead. So, it was time to buy a new engine. I almost decided on a new machine, but Hubby was at home and said we should give it a shot. Oh, well, I cannot win every time ; )
The technician finished his job this morning and I now have a really quiet machine again. So, I can go back to my laundry schedule: put the laundry to wash before I go to bed and hang them in the morning before I leave for work (Yes, I am crazy like that).
The rest of the day, I've been cleaning, organizing, and opening boxes from our last move. As I said before, there are LOTS of boxes with books that were not opened since we last move to this house almost two years ago.
So, I made a deal with myself and I will open all those boxes before July 5th, when it will complete two years from the move ; )
I am now off to get a hair cut and a manicure as a reward of all the hard work.
junho 04, 2010
Since Bra**zil is a Catholic country, we had a national holiday.
Our companies gave us the Friday off too, so we are trying to do a lot of little things around the house (waiting maintenance guys during business hour, doing laundry, paper organization, and etc, etc, etc).
Yesterday, we literally took the day off. We went out for lunch and watch a movie. We watched Iron M@n 2. Don't judge us, we both love movies that meaningless and fun at the same time. Movies that take our minds of our stressful lives ; )
But one, funny thing happened. On weekends and holidays, the movie tickets (at this particular theater) cost R$ 20,00 per person, which means something like US$ 10,6 per person. But, we arrived at the mall around 1:00 pm and we bought the tickets before our lunch date. They have a promotion: if you buy your ticket before 3:00pm it will cost you R$ 4,00 per person or US$2,10. Can you believe? And they don't tell you anything until you pay your ticket. We will probably be going back to this movie theater again this weekend ; )
I hope you have a great Friday!!!!
junho 02, 2010
Brazil's first team colors were white with blue collars, but following defeat in the Maracanã at the 1950 World Cup, the colors were criticized for lacking patriotism. With permission from the Brazilian Sports Confederation, the newspaper Correio da Manhã held a competition to design a kit incorporating the four colors of the Brazilian flag. The winning design was a yellow jersey with green trim and blue shorts with white trim drawn by Aldyr Garcia Schlee, a nineteen year old from Pelotas. The new colors were first used in March 1954 in a match against Chile, and have been used ever since.
The use of blue as the away kit color dates from the 30s, but it became the permanent second choice accidentally in the 1958 World Cup final. Brazil's opponents were Sweden, who also wears yellow, and a draw gave to the home team Sweden the right to play in yellow. Brazil, who traveled with no spare kit, hurriedly purchased a set of blue shirts and sewed on emblems cut from their yellow shirts.
junho 01, 2010
I've been questioning myself: what do I really want?
Do I want to keep growing in my career?
Do I want to have a family?
Right now, this is where I stand: I want a family and a more stable life. As stable I mean: less working hours (for both of us), less travel. Just more family time!!!
This is what I've been praying for.